As it Began~

This is a story of how my life began again...I can recall three particular events that reached so deep inside of me that at the time I wasn't aware of the impact it would have in the unfolding of future events and my evolvement and growth into the person who I would continue to become. This by no means projects that my growth has stunted or that my evolution and purpose has come to a halt...this is just the story of how things became and continue to become! I share some personal things in this post and think it is important to share our stories because when we are in a moment of discouragment or faced with huge obstacles there is the point where we must feel inside ourselves and tune into the signs for the answers to freedom. We have the choice to re-create and start over anytime, anywhere.
Event numero uno: One day some 4 years ago I picked up an Oprah magazine and it flipped open to the article "You are your own doctor". At the time, I was partying heavily, staying up all hours of the night, ate processed food, tons of sweets and cared more about my appearance than anything. I'm not even sure I knew what a soul was then or felt my heart and I sure as hell didn't respect myself. My digestion was horrible, my skin started breaking out, I had no energy and I felt like something was very wrong with me internally. The fact that this article appeared to me meant that I was given a choice. A choice to see this as a message to change my life. And if I didn't choose to do so, well then who knows. I ate fake meat and loved vodka. I wore high heels and a ton of makeup. I fake tanned for so long that I had no idea that there was a beautiful olive glow under all of the orange. I bleached my hair and then dyed it as dark as night. My extremist personality put me in the bad health I was in and I was ready to take my life back. This is where I did the unthinkable to most of the people around me. I started eating real food. Whole foods. I ate fish, vegetables, grains, eliminated gluten and all refined sugars. I received colonics to flush out all the bad so that all the new nourishment could be welcomed in. I threw out all my chemical laden products and switched to earth friendly products. My discovery of raw African Shea butter changed my life and if I have held onto one compulsive habit it is to slather myself in this buttery love daily and I will continue to do so, hopefully forever! When I switched my diet everyone around me thought I was weird. They said, 'Oh live a little!' 'In order for me to live,' I said, 'I must do everything as close to the earth as possible, this includes what goes in and what goes on my body.' I spent about a year researching holistic ways of healing. With this self-learned knowledge and not the help of any doctor I healed myself. On this journey I learned my body and what it likes, what it doesn't. The creativity of composing food fresh from the farm with what I had on hand was the way to express myself and I thank my unhealthy path for leading me to my healthy one!
Event numero dos: My soul and heart were dormant for a long time. I remember opening up a baby book during a holiday gathering and saw myself smiling as a child and I started crying. I cried because I missed being that innocent, playful child that I longed to be again and was ashamed of the life I was living with no purpose and only intentions of consuming toxic drugs and alcohol until I couldn't remember what happened. My life was a blur and I was disappointing all the people around who actually loved me. I wanted to feel pure, full of love and be the creative child I once was. The emotions I felt while seeing a beautiful reflection of myself so young and vibrant, sparked something and opened up my heart and soul just enough to nudge me further into purpose and leave behind all that did not serve me.
Event numero tres: One evening I was in the basement of my parents house and I found a photo tucked in some stuff in a box shoved behind some other stuff. I picked the framed photo out, wiped of the dust and stared at it. It was a silhouette of a bare tree with the sunset colors of the sky in the background. I was enveloped in its stunning beauty. When turning the photo over, there was a handwritten personal message from a man and a quote by Sigurd Olson, 'The point where days are governed by daylight and dark, rather than by schedules...where one eats if hungry and sleeps when tired becoming completely immersed in the ancient rhythms...then one begins to live'. At the time I had no idea what the hell that meant. Now I have this tattooed on my body as reminder of a major turning point in my life and to stay as close to the simplicity of this life as I can because this is what truly gives me joy and meaning. I thank the man deeply who took this photo, wrote this message and for the photo finding me. The significance of this event has no doubt influenced much of where I am today.
So, here I am. There I go. Discovering all the adventures moment by moment. Being in the moment and appreciating every bit of it!
We must love ourselves fully, every part of us, including the past because it has in some way or another delivered us to this very day.
My heart keeps opening, my creativity flows more each day and the synchronicity of events keep getting more magical. I thank all the women and all the men in my life for all you have shared with me, all you have taken from me, all the reflections you have projected, all the hurt you have caused. You are all my teachers and I thank you for being a beautiful friend in this way.
May the journey continue :)

Welcome the magic~

Love,
Earth Mama

So It Is~

You know what's great? Is that we have no idea what the hell is going to happen. Ever. We do have super powers such as intuition and hearts to guide us and if we listen very closely to these then we are indeed connected to our path and life's purpose. But in the midst of all these questions we have...Am I living in the right spot? Is 'the one' out there, and if so what does that look like? What am I supposed to be doing? Do I make enough money? Do I need to go meet this person for tea or this other person for a hike in the woods? Do I eat this chocolate or that chocolate? So many questions! Do we let the mind take over or get out of our heads? OR do we embrace our crazy knowledge filled noggins and channel it into neat and  nifty ways of thinking? Because if we feel with our hearts and those instant feelings in our guts first, then we have a pretty good chance of knowing the answer. AND we must also know that some things are out of our control and we must let them GO. We must. If there is nothing we can do about it, without manipulating or scheming up ways to make it happen then we have the beautiful option of letting it go. Send it to the wind...and let it be carried away wherever it needs to go. Perhaps the wind will change directions and something will come back to us that we never thought could, but this is only possible if we let it go in the first place. There's also the possibility that after time we will realize that some things are better left to dance in the wind. As far as making things happen, I do not discourage you from doing this. Make it all happen! We are powerful beings and where there's a will there's a way! Where there's heart there is the answer and no matter what happens along the way we can be assured that, damn straight we are on the right path. So, think with your heart not your head. If something feels good in the moment, then it FEELS good. Enjoy every bit of it thoroughly. Moments like these come and go, so seize them and be thankful. Sometimes our mind will kick in after and strew bits and pieces every which direction and have us completely caught up in nonsense which will derail our  emotions and insides. This is okay though...because all that chatter will die down once actions are taken. Actions make it happen. Manifest...does this work? YES. Once you start believing and syncing with the rhythms more and more then things will start happening...just...like...that! Get yourself in alignment. We have so much energy flowing through our bodies we must make sure that any tense-ness is worked out. We can be holding onto things for YEARS, stuff from when we were kids. Release it and be sure to fill all the new space with goodness. Receive massages, adjustments, Reiki, Bowen, acupuncture, have a friend find your pressure points. The power of touch my friends, is a powerful thing and much needed. If you don't believe in energy just do it because it feels nice. Then, once you start feeling the effects, poof there is the energy flowing. If you don't have money, call it in. WORK HARD. Most importantly, work from your heart. Even if you make $0 and you have heart, drive, dedication~ You are on your way to manifesting much abundance. The gold lies within the rainbow. If you are calling in a relationship, then trust. Trust that whoever it is that's out there IS and that once you stop looking, seeking, searching so hard and you start doing things you love...they will be right there. Open your heart first...no one will see an opportunity in a closed heart. I believe our thoughts are very powerful and if we think with intention then they do become tangible. I have also come to know and understand that drinking a glass of wine or hot apple cider by the fire during the fall time makes my entire body melt and that putting on my hiking boots with a tall cozy pair of socks, a thick fleece, and my backpack full of goods to trek through the woods and mountains makes me feel ALIVE. When I read poetry to the 89 year old professor poet I care and cook for my eyes well up with tears because his profound presence touches me in a way that I cannot describe. When I feel and imagine what it's going to be like living in a tent for 5 months in the desert of Mexico, my soul dances a little jig inside my body that cannot be contained because I know that life is going to change more than I can grasp. I feel that when I cook for my clients...when I stir the soup, my love is circulating and that they feel the gift I am giving. Keep on giving your gifts. That's what we are here for. Our whole life is like Christmas, giving and receiving. Flow with life...because life is beautiful!!! Enjoy everyone and everything, be grateful for all that exists.
Gratitude is the open door to abundance!
Spread your love and light every moment of everyday and when you aren't feeling so shimmery then put on your plaid pajamas, scrunchy socks and allow yourself to read a book, paint, dance, play music, cook up some soul food, or just simply nestle deep within your covers and rest. We must have rest to reach our greatest potential.

Sigue a tu Corazon,
Tierra Madre

P.S. Don't forget to enjoy the ride along the way to whatever it is we are on our way to...